{ Oh So Holiday! }

//September 25, 2009//

Di kesempatan libur lebaran tahun ini, akhirnya gue dapat 2 minggu libur dan menyenangkan sekali bahwa akhirnya gue benar2 libur. Di mana liburan semester gue selalu tidak benar-benar libur (Semester Pendek yang menyiksa dan KP). Damn, it’s fun :D This is just totally random things from the holiday.

Gue membeli buku ini buat kado ulang tahun Angga. I just flash around Aksara and found this, it caught my eyes in the first place. The next thing I know, I just grab the book and said, "This is just the perfect book for Angga". Happy birtday, dear Angga. Hope you like the book (I cross my finger on that). Hihi :)

Gue kembali mudik ke Garut. Tinggal selama 2 hari di sana, menginap di hotel, makan di restoran (hal-hal yang tidak pernah terjadi seumur hidup, karena toh gue selalu tinggal di rumah nenek di Garut) dan menikmati pemandian air panas di Cipanas. Agak aneh memang, tapi it's like a new kind of experience.

Gue kembali bertemu dengan teman-teman terbaik semasih muda. Yeaaa... Nana, Henny, Maya, Irma, I'm just damn missing you guys. Hampir setahun lebih kayaknya kita tak bertemu, tapi akhirnya semuanya terbalas. Waktu pertemuan yang singkat, tapi menyenangkan...

Gue mendownload America’s Next Top Model cycle 12 dari YouTube. Ahahahaha… It’s sound freaky, but you know how much I love the show. Wow, gue suka sekali cycle ini, apalagi they're going abroad to... Brazil! Gue suka sekali sama beberapa konsep photo shootnya, dan tentu saja Miss Allison. Model freak yang terobsesi dengan darah dan hemofilia dengan mata sangat besar (hampir seperti Alien), tapi cantik sekali.

Tentu saja Lebaran!!! Ramadhan tahun ini, terbuang kembali dengan sia-sia. -__-" Uuuh, it's hard knowing that I promise a lot of thing on this Ramadhan. And none was accomplished. I guess I didn't try that hard, and I hate myself for that. Uurgh... Mudah-mudahan gue bisa bertemu lagi Ramadhan di tahun depan. Amin.

Banyak yang bilang liburan ini terasa singkat, tapi buat gue tidak sama sekali ~… I guess how fast or slow a time is decided by how many moment that you actually enjoyed. And basically, I enjoyed this holiday, so much… It is most likely because that I’m trying to be effective on how I spent the time. I finished a lot of things in first week of the holiday that I’ve become so proud of myself since then (Laporan KP, PR yang menumpuk, Pendidikan Bidang, dll). And it’s just wrap all the thing about this holiday.

Guess what, yeah I loooove this holiday… <3

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{ #certain opinion @certain website }

//September 23, 2009//

I just happen to skip socializing on Twitter and tend to have a negative thinking about using it, but now, I'm just skipping the half of the world. Or the half of the world just skips me?

It’s huge when everybody is sharing everything on the web and every single thing just about online and stuff. I’m just afraid that I’m not that autistic to start texting, posting, and re-tweeting everything. No offense here, I respect other people who is using the website. I’m not too blind to see that this website just happens to gain such popularity (with Joko Anwar naked think and all) on my fellow Indonesian.

I like to write, I like to type, and I love the World Wide Web, a lot. But I’m still thinking that the web is not the best way to socialize with people. Well, I can't be online 24/7 and I'm just a quite person that thinking too much sharing my state of mind or a live update of my daily life. That is just the basic reason why I'm not fan of the website, unlike many people do. Sure that I can get many benefits and gain a lot of information and hot topic right away, but I'm not mind to know it the last.

So, that's just it. I'm not gonna be using it (at least for now). Because, I'm still not finding the most right reason to use it. People says don't think to much, but guess that I'm not that kind of person.

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{ MAINH }

//September 19, 2009//

I’m still here and you’re still there.
We’re still loving popcorn, watching a damn stupid show.
And hope we’ll be there to share the banquet later on tomorrow.
Though we separate miles, we know that we’re always keeping the memory together.
You just know, how much I miss you guys. Yes, A LOT.

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{ A Letter to Superstar }

//September 19, 2009//

So now you’re playing solo. So what? What’s the different here and now?

You’re screaming to tell people you’re on your own now. You’re actually giving a press conference to other. And actually, you’re stand still and strong. You want to proof that you’re okay, you’re strong, and you’re good on your own. But honey, you say you just need a time to let go, and even if you two finally going on a duet again, people won’t give a damn. We TOTALLY understand. We know that people actually making a short or even long decision, and later on, find out that it’s not so short or so long thought. And maybe you just have another long conversations, thoughts, or lot of time in the future to think about it.

So, you think people going to interrupt you and your little life. You still think that we CARE that much? Well girl, you better think again. There’s a lot of thing going on to the world right now, and you still think that you need that kind of attraction? Gosh, you just need to see the world in a much bigger eye. It’s not always just about you.

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{ Jawaban }

//September 18, 2009//

God answers prayers in 3 ways:
He says ‘Yes’ and give you what you want.
He says ‘No’ and gives you something better.
He says ‘Wait’ and gives you the best.

Toko Permata. Siang Hari

Di bawah sorotan lampu putih dan display etalase yang serupa, terlihat deretan cincin dan perhiasan diletakkan. Toko permata itu sangat terkenal, sudah menangani ribuan klien. Untuk kado ulang tahun, untuk pernikahan, dan tentu saja untuk melamar.

Sebuah kotak cincin terlihat dibuka oleh Sang Pegawai Toko.
“Ini yang terbaik, Tuan,” katanya sambil tersenyum. Dikeluarkannya sebuah pita berwarna putih.

Sang Pembeli mengambil kotak cincin tersebut dan mengangguk-angguk puas. Kotak cincin itupun ditutup, dililit pita oleh tangan piawai Sang Pegawai Toko. Sang Pegawai Toko menggesekkan sebuah kartu kredit di mesin. Kartu platinum, dengan warna hitam yang mengkilat. Tanda tangan siap dibubuhkan, dengan bolpen emas milik Sang Pembeli.

Suara mesin kasir terdengar berdentang. Sang Pegawai Toko dan Sang Pembeli berjabat tangan. Keduanya tersenyum, transaksi yang memuaskan.

Rooftop sebuah hotel. Malam hari.

Terlihat dua gelas terdentang. Malam itu, ratusan bintang berlomba mencuri perhatian. Dinner istimewa, satu meja di bawah langit yang gemerlap. Makanan pembuka, lilin remang-remang, main course, permainan violin (“Surprise!” kata Sang Pria), pembicaraan yang panjang, sedikit canda, dan tambahan rayuan manja.

Malam berlalu, Sang pria membuka kotak cincin, Sang Wanita (tampaknya) kaget bukan main. Sang pria memasangkan cincin itu di jari Sang Wanita yang sesaat menahan nafas. Sang Wanita menjawab.

Sebuah apartemen. Siang Hari

Terlihat sebuah kamar apartemen mewah. Sebuah suara terdengar dari telepon.

“Silahkan tinggalkan pesan setelah bunyi BIP.”

“Yandi, nggak ada di rumah, ya? Eh, udah denger belom? Gue tadi baru dapet undangan, terus gue langsung telpon elo. Si Nina, iya Nina, mau kawin aja gitu. Cincinnya bo… wah, gede banget... Tapi lo jangan pasang tampang kusut ya waktu dateng ke resepsinya. Ntar lo pokoknya sama gue aja… ngomong-ngomong gimana cewe yang waktu itu gue kenalin, rada-rada suka nggak nyambung gitu sih ngomongnya. Tapi cakep kan, bo… Udah dulu deh, Yan. Nanti kalo udah pulang kasih tahu gue ya, Bo. Katanya ada tempat sushi baru dibuka. Giliran lo nraktir, ya…”

Di meja terdapat pigura-pigura foto yang memperlihatkan foto sebuah pasangan. Terlihat genangan darah meluas, kaki seseorang terlihat terduduk. Di tangan kanan mayat itu ada sebuah pistol, dan di tangan kirinya ada sebuah undangan pernikahan. Nina dan Ardi, tulisnya. Di lantai, tergeletak sebuah foto, Yandi dan Nina, saling memeluk. Masa lalu dan kenangan-kenangan indah.

Sang wanita menjawab “Ya.”
Tapi jawabannya tak selalu indah.

Note: I've got a chill for writting this and imagining this. I guess blood spill and psycho things is not really my speciality (but I wrote it anyway).
Cheers.

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{ Enough is Enough }

//September 11, 2009//

Enough is Enough.
And it is enough to pissed me off.

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{ Klise: Tidak Pernah Ada yang Sempurna di Dunia Ini }

//September 10, 2009//

Tidak ada yang sempurna di dunia ini. Makanya manusia banyak berbuat salah. Tapi jangan pernah menyalahkan ketidaksempurnaan kita sebagai alasan atas kesalahan-kesalahan yang kita perbuat.

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{ Step 1 }

//September 9, 2009//

Orang bilang saya lemah.
Fine, ini brarti tantangan buat saya.
Saya harus membuktikan.

By the time I was done, I'll be making history.

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{ Warrior }

//September 02, 2009//

Since I was a kid, when I read with all my might to know the beauty of life through fairy tales, fables, and other children books, I never want to be a princess. I'd like to be a warrior. That's why, now, I'm trying so hard to be a warrior of the light.

I know that it seems a lot like far. But at least, I've come closer to it from the first time I've tried. And if people don't see me as one, I'll be pissed. Nah, kidding. If people don't see me as one, it means that I just have to try a little bit harder than anyone else. Yeah, life doesn't come easy as 1, 2, 3, doesn't it? But believe me, I'm not stopping anywhere.

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